Edge

A step closer 

from a step away,

from a derisory life

A step closer 

to the cold air 

to the dark clouds

to the precipice

A step closer

from a step away,

from the shallowness of reality 

A step closer 

with baited breath

with trembling hands

with an uneasy stride

A step closer

from a step away,

from solitude

from darkness

from reality

A step closer 

from a step away,

a step closer 

to the last step...

Life, on repeat

Thick smoke rises
through the beam of distant light
dawn lights from a lone star
shadow a half moon on a pale night

As the ash burns
on each drag
smoke stiffles tears
tears quiet screams

Voluntary insomnia
keeps thoughts awake
within a relentless fool
fighting his existential survival

A song plays, repeatedly
thoughts repeat endlessly
questions remain unanswered
answers remain

As dawn nears,
the last strand of smoke
is lost in the morning light
as life waits
for another night...

Shall I dream?

Amidst shadows cast by a dim light

amidst the sounds of a silent night
I sit here with a pondering thought
about thee, my love sought

Shall I close my eyes
to see thy sight reprise
shall I let begin a dream
to feel thy warmth gleam

Shall i stare at the stars
and let a hope afar
to hear my word,
of love, revert

Shall i stay awake

till the morning ray
to know thy embrace
for yet another day

Shall i walk upon the shore

to watch the endless waves
and as with them
wish with thee
a boundless eternity

Shall i let go
of my fears of yore
to believe in thee
for now and forevermore

Shall I,

amidst the silent shadows
amidst the stars gleam,
stay awake and yet dream?

For hope

For hope i had aspired

for hope, once, had inspired

As I saw 

you had not seen

what was not a figment 

yet a loss eminent

At the tide's crescent

I found my descent

in darkness abound

I searched for stable ground

Your memories faded

as i closed my eyes

your words drowned

in my cries

As i let go, i let go of you

you, I had offered all to stay

yet, you led my trust astray

Upon the shore

I was once more

stagnant I lay

since that day

By you, once inspired,

I had hoped, I had aspired...

You, I know not

As I sit in solitude

As i feel the summer night breeze

As I watch shadows move in incandescent homes

As i listen to the quiet of the city streets...

I think of  you

I know your secrets and your lives

I know your glories and your pride

yet I know not what's behind those eyes  

I have listened to your words and your silence

I have heard your laughs and tears

yet i know not of what they say

You told me your dreams and your fears

you told me the moments of your years

yet  your thoughts I hear not

I have felt your love 

I have felt your touch

yet you, I feel not

As I sit in solitude

As i feel the summer night breeze

As I watch shadows move in incandescent homes

As i listen to the quiet of the city streets...

I think of you 

I haven't learnt to smile as you do

I haven't seen the world as you do

yet I smile at the world when I think of you

I don't know how to love as you do

I haven't lived as you have

yet I love life when i think of you

As I think of you

listening to the quiet city streets

watching the shadows in incandescent homes

in the summer night breeze and solitude

I know I love you,

you, I know not...

Sands

As grains of time

start slipping by

emptiness hollows

a hand full of hope

Once I dreamt

with a tighter clasp

yet now i sleep

with a silent weep

Of my days of yore

of dreams unsung

what remains are visions

as time passes by

With each surf

upon the shore

the grains of time

start slipping by

Through my fingers it seeps

towards the deep

my time

away it creeps..

Forgotten

As fingers shivered,
upon a cold rail,
crimonsed dew drops,
wrote a lost tale.

Of a life lived
in shadows deep,
of borrowed years,
and quiet tears.

Of pleasure and pain,
of anonymity yet hope,
of an empty mirror,
of nothing but fear.

In the last hour of darkness,
under the starlight,
in red it read,
"Here lies ___."